Should I Let The Balls Fall Where They May?

I’m at a crossroads in my life, I think, I have been here for a while. I know I told all of YOU, who follow me, I had a new job as the Activity Director. I worked years in the same facility as a Nursing Assistant. I enjoyed being there as a Nursing Assistant in the beginning and the middle of the job. The job just got repetitive, I caught myself not giving my all as a Nursing Aid and did not enjoy the feeling of being half-ass!

The Activity Director

Has a lot of responsibilities, truthfully I don’t know if I’m pulling my own weight…

Last Saturday, My husband and I drove two residents, and a bus full of other Olympians who  belonged to another company. To the Special Olympics State Bowling in P-town. They asked if they could hitch a ride on our bus, with their Olympians, too. She made the plans to car-pool through my boss. We left around 7:00am and we should have left earlier. I had forgotten to check the gas tank the night before and we were on empty. My husband took a wrong exit to find a gas station. We ended up going around in a circle, and started back from square one. The time is now 7:25am and we are just leaving S-town, the town where we are from. We had to be on the lanes ready to go by 9:00am. We strolled in at 8:40am and the lady from the company who hitched a ride said she was going to run in and register her athletes. I gathered every one-off the bus as quick as I could. A man from the other company came and grabbed the ramps they needed for their Olympians. I got both of my residents into the bowling alley and on their lanes. My husband parked the bus, and grabbed the two ramps we would need. I went to registration, registration started from 8:00am – 9:00am. The time, now is 8:55am. I barely made the deadline. I was headed back to their lanes, when a volunteer came up to me, and said: “both of my athletes need name tags.” I stuck my hand into the registration envelope pulled them out and walked as fast as my chubby self would carry me sideways through the crowd. I slapped them on my athletes. Then the lady who hitched a ride with us informs me my residents needed their ramps set up. I had yet to set up ramps at all in this job position. I asked her as opening ceremony was going on if she thought I could use the ramps of the opposing athletes? “She said Shelley, you will have to ask them, “where are our other ramps?” I told her they’re up front. I don’t think I’m going to have time to set them up. She said “GO GET THEM” my husband took off running to do as she said and we ALL helped put them together, and put them on their lanes. I don’t know what time I had everything together, however I do know it was a close call. I also know these two people saved my ass.

I still have to take all these ramps back to the Bowling alley, here in S-town. I felt I owed this woman a favor for saving my ass! I told her we had Bowling on my calendar for Tuesday, Tuesday being yesterday. I called the Bowling alley to find out their hours have changed. They would not be open until 4:00Pm. I get off at 4:30PM and the residents eat around 5:00. The ramps didn’t make their way to the Bowling alley yesterday.

Today my son is coughing.

My husband stayed home yesterday to be with him, now its my turn. I WAS working yesterday, maybe I should have taken the ramps back after 4PM. I had a choir coming in to perform for my residents around 7:00pm. I’m going to go into work, tonight to take back the ramps when my husband gets home. The reason being is because tomorrow we take twelve residents to go shopping. We leave at 10am the ramps take up two seats on the bus. I’m thinking they need to be out of the bus before we go grocery shopping. My luck we won’t be able to cram everyone into the 15 seats we have on the bus. I have my assistant, and two volunteers going tomorrow.

Whomever this letter concerns,

I have a calendar full of activities this month. One being a Christmas party with residents and their families. I feel the pressure is on. They also have a New Years eve party which is in this same month. I’m not for sure I like this feeling, I don’t know though if I’m just not used to working this hard? I don’t know, if its to physical for me because I’m a chub. I do know I have seen other chubby people doing the job. I have always had trouble focussing, and this job is all focus and organization. I wonder though if I’m lacking help or if perhaps maybe the job has to many things going on for two people to handle?

This is where I guess YOU come in. I’m asking you guys, I guess since I’m asking you all can let me have it??

12 thoughts on “Should I Let The Balls Fall Where They May?

  1. Life leads us all to many crossroads. Sometimes we have to examine all our options on the direction we want to go. We can look at the other road and see what it might offer or we can examine the road were on and see if we need to make some significant changes in order to make it worth staying on. Either way it sounds like change of some kind is in your future. Keep your head up and keep moving in the direction that brings you peace.

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    1. I hear 👂 what you’re saying. I wish change was easy, especially changes to ourselves. Physically and mentally. Thank you, for you kind comment, and dropping by my blog.


  2. Hi Shelie 🙂 Figured I would stop by and catch up since I saw you in the neighborhood (thanks for stopping by by the way 🙂 )
    Wow! you have a lot on your plate lady lol. I was exhausted just reading about your day!
    I think based on what you were saying here, perhaps maybe you are overthinking it. When you start something new like this and especially when it’s a big change from what you’re used to, I think it’s important to cut yourself a bit of slack.
    It sounds to me like that was quite the workload for one person however but at the same time there is always a learning curve with this sort of thing.
    To put it in perspective, my husband worked the same job for 12 years until one day enough was enough. He took on a whole new job and like you lots of running around and a need to be highly focused and organized. he’s a super energetic guy and a borderline workaholic.
    Ultimately that job certainly required more help than he had as he was thrown to the wolves in my opinion BUT it got him out of that mundane, going to go insane job he had before and it proved to him that he could in fact leave a job he had for 12 years and hated and that there was life beyond all that. But it’s scary making that leap.
    The job was short lived and he moved on to another job and he’s much, much happier now. I compare jobs to relationships.
    Sometimes we stay comfortably miserable in one and finally get out, then we have a rebound and then we typically find the right one. I am not saying that’s the case for you but I will say just go with your gut. I know it’s not as easy as picking up and leaving a job but I would say at this point just take a deep breath and allow things to unfold naturally and maybe don’t be so hard on yourself 😉 lol trust me you will know what you need to do if and when the time comes.Sometimes we arenot meant to be in one place for long and sometimes we are but trust me you will know 🙂 ❤

    P.S sorry for such a long comment lol

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    1. Don’t be sorry, I enjoy a long comment. I agree about everything being a learning curve. I learned Saturday how to set up a Bowling Ramp, I also learned I need to leave sooner than later. I have had significant changes in the last two years. I may be wrong but the good Lord definitely has my eyebrow raised. I felt lead to write my whole day out, and see where the post would land, even if the post was to vent or be reassured. Thank you, for your comforting words. FYI: I like your videos lengthy. You’re down-to-earth it’s a breath of fresh air!

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      1. Aww thanks Shelie! 🙂 lol it’s really hard to keep them short so maybe I shouldn’t worry about that so much and just make the videos the way I want! That’s right I said it lol I worry too much sometimes about what other people think but being myself seems to be working lately so thank you for reminding me of that! 🙂 ❤

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  3. Before you even finished the post I could tell that there definitely is too much to handle. One can only do the best job, if they have all the resources they need… and you need more hands to help. So in order for you to be able to withstand the stress and pressure.. and even enjoy your work, ‘ask’ for more help.
    If it’s not forthcoming, perhaps you need to explore other opportunities even if it will be difficult to leave the place you’ve been for so long…. So my dear, take a deep breath, realize your worth… and your limitations to do the impossible! Diane xx

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